Tired.
Got told off again at work for not following-up with a item I took in.
Such a simple task, yet I fail so badly at doing simple simple things. I don’t know if I’m cut out for this job. It’s a stressful environment, dealing with angry, maybe stupid customers, sometimes both at the same time.
I don’t know why I even chose this job in the first place. Thing is, if I can’t cope with something as simple as this, then what can I do? I’m such a failure at this. Everything also cannot do.
The things I like doing are totally not profitable. Right now my two biggest passions are photography and skating. Neither can earn me money for my daily needs. My photos lack a certain ‘oomph’ factor, and my skating is nothing but beginner skill.
Meh. I feel damned useless right now. I have no direction in life. I’m nauseaous, I have a headache and my socks are disgustingly sticky. I’m so tired. Not physically tired – I have loads of energy, especially when I’m excersiing, but I’m exhaused… so exhausted mentally.
I wonder if anyone actually reads my blog lah. Since I don’t have anyone to talk to… My best friend who I can always turn to is unavailable at the moment and I do not wish to bother her, as she has stated that she wants to be alone.
…
-dies-
Photography and skating are the enjoyable things you do as an outlet; kinda like me playing Maple as an outlet from all the research I need to do. Then again, I do enjoy teaching so that’s probably not a good example. :p
Take it this way. Now you know what you canNOT do, so you either find something else or you try harder. There’s no such thing as a perfect job with no stress. Just one that you can handle best.